Today, my anxiety was the worst it’s been in quite a while.
To say out loud that I am used to living with anxiety symptoms every day makes me sad. But it’s true, and it’s my daily reality.
There are little triggers that, in the moment, don’t feel significant. But within minutes, I’m in a state of paralysis. For some reason, I couldn’t find my way out of this state today.
My chest was tight, breathing became difficult, and I couldn’t settle my eyes or body. It’s an invasive feeling that consumes everything…
What made it worse was being so incredibly hard on myself. Instead of offering self-compassion, I became judgmental, questioning why this time felt so intense.
The aftermath is just as challenging. It’s as if an energy vampire has visited – my body is physically depleted like I’ve run a marathon.
It’s hard to know what to do right now, even though I have the tools I need.
So I guess that’s where I start: with the tools I already possess.
